Shandée - Dreaming of You Tonight

I don't want to fall asleep, For I know you'll be there, In my dreams so vividly, But I can't hold you near.

It's something that I avoid, Not easy for me to face, I see you there in my mind, But must move on from this place.

Don't get me wrong, my dear, I don't want to fall in love, I have to find my own way, To push forward and move on.

I know this isn't normal, You're always in my head, I see you in every reflection, And on every glass window.

Boom Boom goes my heart, Mami Mami my voice cries, I want to make you mine, But fear to fall and never rise.

Can you feel the passion, The fire that's burning me? I want to be with you so bad, But I can't risk being hurt, you see.

This is driving me crazy, I need to feel you near, I'd rather have you in my arms, Than dreaming of you my whole life, my dear.

Can you sense my yearning, The desire deep within? I'll stay awake a little longer, Dreaming of you until the morning begins.

Shandée - Trapped in Love's Cage

Every time you walk away I'm left drowning in a sea of sorrow But you always return, like a boomerang Dragging me back into your twisted world

You're like a poison I can't resist Your toxic words infecting my mind My heart aches, but I can't let you go Bound to you, like a bird with clipped wings

I try to forget you, to break free But my love for you holds me in chains I'm like a prisoner in my own heart Trapped in this endless cycle of pain

The voices in my head tell me to leave But my feet are rooted to the ground I'm like a tree that can't uproot itself Stuck in a barren wasteland, waiting to be found

I know deep down you don't love me My tears are testament to your indifference But still, I cling to the hope that someday You'll see me as more than just a convenience

I've built my own cage, a gilded prison And though the door is always open I cannot leave, for fear of the unknown Trapped in a place I cannot call my own.

Shandée - Breaking Chains and Embracing Love

The past has struck me down with force,

It chains my heart and stops my course.

When I dare to break the ice,

My ghosts appear, it's not so nice.

 

I should not care what others think,

But fear stops me, I start to sink.

Alone with my pillow every night,

I pour my heart out, it feels all right.

 

I've reached some highs I never thought,

The world says I'm crazy, but I fought.

What use is sanity in this place,

Where no one understands my case.

 

Someone once kissed me with their heart,

And I lost myself, I fell apart.

But it all vanished as it came,

What we had, what we were, it's lame.

 

I'm left with doubts that hold me back,

And silly fears that I must attack.

But how can I forget those words,

Of love and promises like birds?

 

I don't miss what was, nor want to return,

But holding on hurts, I feel the burn.

I've cried enough, yelled at life,

Said I won't love again, no more strife.

 

I know I can't erase my past,

But I must face my fears at last.

I have someone who wants to make,

My days brighter, my nights awake.

 

It's not magic, it had to be,

But I must handle it with maturity.

I fear losing my sight, my sense,

When my heart loves, my brain's defense.

 

A new life is what I'm offered,

And I want to believe, I'm not deterred.

It won't be easy, I'm aware,

But if I don't try, I'll never dare.

 

I asked the sky for some solace,

And an angel came, a consoling face.

"Don't fear failure, you won't be happy,

Better to try and fail than to be sappy.

 

Regrets won't help, they're in the past,

Leave it all behind, make a new cast.

Try again before losing love's flame,

You might find joy, you might not blame."

Shandée - Wasteland

The days are fleeting by, and I don't know why

We look at each other like strangers in the night

Tell me that we will survive, please don't lie

I've never known days as dark as these in sight

 

I'm afraid and no one is here to help me through

I need you close, to hold and show me you care

To love me more each day, till our time is through

As we struggle and gasp, fighting for more air

 

This fear is like poison, a plague to the heart

Everything's changed, everyone's looking askance

Anxiety grips me, tearing me apart

But I'll stand strong, face my fears, take a stance

 

I feel powerless, my fate in selfish hands

But I'll calm my heart, and survive this wasteland.