Shandee - Not Interested

You can leave now,
Do yourself a favor and disappear.
You claim to love me?
Bless your heart, I’m not interested.

You are selfish,
Cruel,
And heartless.
I could say more, but I won’t.

I don’t care
How you feel,
You never deserved my attention.
This is the last time I waste my care on you.

To anyone who doesn’t know you,
They'll cry over your twisted tales.
Believe me, I sound cruel,
But you’ve rewritten our love story to make me the villain.

Shandée - Poisoned Love

You say you're leaving,

and there's no turning back this time.

This story is over,

it's reached its end.

 

I've heard this before,

I've lived it,

I've seen it so much

that I'm bored of it.

 

Go find someone else,

this one's already gone,

he's no longer here,

he's dead.

 

Say what you want,

repeat it until you're tired,

and if you wish,

you can forget me in a year.

 

You can do it,

I don't care, I'm not interested.

I saw myself in a mirror,

and I didn't like the reflection.

 

What I saw wasn't me,

because you poison me,

you suffocate me, you drown me,

this is a sentence.

 

I don't want this story

in this book,

and I'll write something new

where you don't exist.

 

I don't need anyone

to live,

I'll still be me until the end,

and that's how I'll continue.

 

They tell me I'm not happy,

what do they know about me?

They know my name,

but not who I am.

 

I'll fight,

I'll win,

and I'll prove

that I'll make it.

 

I'm the one who decides,

and I want to dance,

and not stop,

and enjoy tonight.

 

I've created my world,

where love

is not allowed,

so Cupid, don't even think about coming.

Shandée - Poem for a Bully

I see the sorrow in your eyes,

The world's weight upon your shoulder,

Pain that you try so hard to disguise,

And a heart that's growing colder.

No one's there to wait for you,

No one shares your meals or space,

No one's there to see you through,

As you search for a warm embrace.

Your heart is burdened with such weight,

Of all the wrongs that you've been told,

And you feel it's getting late,

To heal the pain before you're old.

But time moves on, and so must you,

Can't hide from truth or pretend,

There's no easy way to make it through,

But you'll find love that'll never end.

So hear me now, my friend so dear,

There's hope beyond this present strife,

And though the path may seem unclear,

Love will lead you to a better life.

Shandée - The Strength Within

 

With hope and strength within her heart and mind, The wife sets forth on a new path to take, Yet trials and challenges she cannot leave behind, As problems multiply with each new break. Two children hers, two more her spouse's kin, Her blended family far from balanced seems, Her husband treats them as if they're thin, His disrespect causing tensions and extreme. She strives to win the love of all her new brood, But they refuse to give her the affection she needs, While he flirts with women and is often rude, Blaming her for problems, as his selfishness feeds. In her own house she's learned she can't trust, A man who's passion lies beyond their bed, Their blended family is fractured and bust, As car accidents and arguments leave her feeling dead. She musters up her courage and takes a stand, To seek a brighter future far away, Leaving all the pain and strife at hand, And start anew, on a brighter day. Dear wife, you're strong and brave and true, Seek the happiness that you deserve to find, And remember that your destiny's up to you, For you hold the key to the future that you'll bind.

Shandée - Wasteland

The days are fleeting by, and I don't know why

We look at each other like strangers in the night

Tell me that we will survive, please don't lie

I've never known days as dark as these in sight

 

I'm afraid and no one is here to help me through

I need you close, to hold and show me you care

To love me more each day, till our time is through

As we struggle and gasp, fighting for more air

 

This fear is like poison, a plague to the heart

Everything's changed, everyone's looking askance

Anxiety grips me, tearing me apart

But I'll stand strong, face my fears, take a stance

 

I feel powerless, my fate in selfish hands

But I'll calm my heart, and survive this wasteland.

Angel Shandée - Ultimátum

My heart has until today to let you go, An ultimatum I have given to my soul, I must erase you from my skin and bones, Tonight will be the last night, I'll think of you whole.

I'll wipe away all traces of our past, No more tears will fall, I swear, I won't be that foolish lover, who cast, His heart away for someone who doesn't care.

What's the point of loving you so much, When you only mock and tease my heart, Why should I hold onto this love, When it only tears my soul apart.

You were my drug, my addiction to numb, But now I need a cure, to be free, To feel that I no longer need you to come, And live my life in harmony.

Loving you is a waste of time, For I deserve something better, true, Wanting you to be mine, Is something my heart is no longer allowed to do.