I Know What You Did

I know you suffered.
I know that, young and lost,
You were kicked out of your home.
I know your story—you told it often.

But I was not responsible
For your suffering
Or your tears.
Yet you wanted us to pay.

You had four chances to redeem yourself,
And every time, you failed.
It’s clear now—
You couldn’t give
What you never learned to give.

Now you hide
Behind tears and regret,
Playing the victim
For those who don’t know the truth.

Play your games,
Say whatever you want—
In the end,
I know what you did.

Shandee - Now You Seek Attention

Now you are looking for attention,
Love?
Something you never gave,
Not when you could.

Do not come to me with tears,
They mean nothing to me.
Do you remember when I came to you,
Seeking comfort, seeking you?
And you told me,
“I had to be an adult”?

I was just a child,
Unaware of the world.
Little did I know
That at twelve,
I’d be forced to grow.

I had to lie,
Pretend everything was fine,
When inside,
I was broken, hurting, starving—
And you did not care.

I forgave you long ago,
But I have not forgotten the pain you caused.
And if you’re afraid to die,
Afraid of going to hell,
Don’t worry—
If you ever end up there,
It will not be because of me.

Shandee - Not Interested

You can leave now,
Do yourself a favor and disappear.
You claim to love me?
Bless your heart, I’m not interested.

You are selfish,
Cruel,
And heartless.
I could say more, but I won’t.

I don’t care
How you feel,
You never deserved my attention.
This is the last time I waste my care on you.

To anyone who doesn’t know you,
They'll cry over your twisted tales.
Believe me, I sound cruel,
But you’ve rewritten our love story to make me the villain.

Shandee - Moments in Time

A picture is
A glimpse into the past,
A moment captured,
Time that can never last.
So many memories,
So many holidays—
New faces entering this world,
And others, sadly, passing away.

Life can be short,
Life can be cruel,
We learn as we go,
We make mistakes—beautiful ones.
It's OK to cry,
But don't forget to laugh,
And cherish the little things
This world has to offer.

Shandée - Eternal Love

Years of wisdom,

A pure heart,

Strong love,

Shared with those you knew.

It was pleasant to have you,

Talking with you was entertaining.

You knew how to make me laugh,

And how to stop my tears.

You had a magical touch,

Making my life easier,

Grounding me when needed,

Offering sage advice.

You were the person

I used to run to,

When my life was crumbling,

You knew how to put me back, piece by piece.

You are gone,

But everything you did remains here,

And my heart will always remember,

That your love was meant to stay.

You are my family,

My friend,

My confidant,

Life was too short, and I miss you.

I know we all have to leave one day,

But I was not ready for this day to come.

I know you are in a better place,

But there is no better place for you than my heart.

God needed you, I know,

But God also knows that I needed you more.

I was not ready to say goodbye,

I am still not ready to understand that you are gone.

I want you to know that I love you,

And I will always love you.

I miss you,

And I will always miss having you with me.

…Until we meet again.

Happy Birthday grandma - 3/9/2024 

Shandée - Beautiful Memory

We were meant to be together.

Forever was not enough.

You asked me questions

That I could not respond to.

Now I know what you wanted to know.

Too little, too late

To regret,

To feel the blues.

You were clear

When you asked me

If I wanted to be with you,

But I thought you were not serious.

I want to turn back time

And go to the exact moment

Where you were in front of me

And touch your mouth with a kiss.

But now you are not real,

Just a memory floating in my head,

Just someone who is haunting me every single day.

You are a beautiful memory that I refuse to forget.

Shandée - Deleting the Past

As I scroll through pictures of days gone by,
I see friends and family, some no longer nearby.
We once shared laughter and memories bright,
But now, we've each taken a different path in life.

Opening this Pandora’s box of the past,
A flood of memories hits me fast.
Deleting pictures, one by one,
Of people and moments that are now gone.

Videos of parties, where I tried to fit in,
Now I see they never truly let me in.
Deleting dreams I once held so high,
Realizing those fires no longer need to ignite.

Poems I wrote, so mature for my age,
Reflect a life that has turned the page.
Activating an account I thought was closed,
A reminder of how time flows and grows.

Some have left us, leaving tears behind,
Others drifted away, though we still try
To hold on to moments we once shared—
Yet, sometimes, it's best to clear the air.

Deleting the past may feel like a chore,
But it creates space for something more.
A new chapter begins, unwritten and true,
With lessons learned, both old and new.

So goodbye to the past, and hello to what's near,
An unwritten future, open and clear.
The irony of erasing what once brought joy—
A metaphor of becoming, like a butterfly's ploy.